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« on: 19, January 2010, 07:54:45 PM »

BIPOLAR DISORDER:
A Personal Analysis of My Chaos Narrative

A Longitudinal Context: October 1943 To January 2010
10th Edition

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Ron Price of George Town Tasmania Australia
(120 Pages: Font 14—45,000 words)

1. Preamble and Introduction:

1.1 At this stage in the evolution of this small book, what ten years ago started out as a brief essay,  I could benefit from the assistance of one, Rob Cowley, affectionately known in publishing circles back in the seventies and early eighties as “the Boston slasher.”  His editing is regarded in some circles as constructive and deeply sensitive.  If he could amputate several dozen pages, several thousand words, of this exploration of my life experience of bipolar disorder(BPD) with minimal agony to my emotional equipment I’m sure readers would be the beneficiaries.  But alas, I think Bob is dead.  I did find an editor, a copy, proofreader and friend who does not slash and burn but leaves one's soul quite intact as he wades through my labyrinthine passages, smooths it all out and excises undesirable elements. But this editor is in the late evening of his life and after editing several hundred pages of my writing he has tired of the exercise and so I am left on my own.  Perhaps one day I may assume the role that Cowley exercised so well in life as the Boston slasher. But in the meantime and without my editor friend, I advise readers not to hold their breath waiting for me to do what is a necessary edit.

John Kenneth Galbraith, the famous economist, had some helpful comments for writers like myself.  Galbraith’s first editor Henry Luce, the founder of Time Magazine, was an ace at helping a writer avoid excess.  Galbraith saw this capacity to be succinct as a basic part of good writing.  Galbraith also emphasized the music of the words and the need to go through many drafts.  I've always admired Galbraith, a man helped me understand the mystery that is economics.  He only recently passed away.  I’ve followed his advice on the need to go through endless drafts.  I’ve lost count of the changes, the additions, the subtractions, the deletions to this text, but I know I have not avoided excess or repetition among other writing weaknesses that readers will find in the following pages.  In some ways I have found that the more drafts I do, the more I had to say.  And excess, is one of the qualities of my life, if I may begin the confessional aspect of this work in a minor key.

And so I have Galbraith watching over my shoulder and his mentor, Henry Luce, as well.   Galbraith spent his last years in a nursing home before he passed away in 2006 at the age of 98.   Perhaps his spirit will live on in my writing as an expression of my appreciation for his work, if nothing else.  His spirit is needed for there is much editing needed here and I do not have the energy and enthusiasm to take on the task. Spontaneity did begin to come into my work until, perhaps, one of the draft in my fifth edition in 2005.  Galbraith says that artificiality enters the text because of this.  I think he is right; part of this artificiality is the same as that artificiality which one senses in life itself: at least that I sense. Galbraith also observed with considerable accuracy, in discussing the role of a columnist, that such a literary man or woman is obliged by the nature of their trade to find significance three times a week in events of absolutely no consequence.  I trust that the nature of my work here, a part of my memoir, a part I call my chaos narrative, will not result in my being obliged to find significance where there is none.  I’m not optimistic though.  Perhaps I should simply say “no comment” and accept the reality of the presence of the inevitable gassy emissions that are part of the world of memoirs.

1.2 This is a longitudinal, retrospective account going back to my conception in October 1943. Neurobiological, neuropsychiatric and affective disorders like BPD have diverse manifestations and symptomatology as well as a broad range of age of onset and specific symptoms.  Little is still known about its pathogenesis, that is, the origin and development of the disease of BPD.  What follows is one person’s story, one person’s life experience of BPD.  It is my personal life-narrative with the diverse manifestations, the symptomology, of BPD. 
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« Reply #1 on: 01, February 2010, 08:31:41 PM »

Hi RonPrice,
Sorry if there has been a delay in acknowledging your post, I have been struggling a bit, and it seems becness has been a very busy Lady!

This web site is here for people such as us, you do not need to ask permission to write your story, just keep in mind if you do plan to publish one day maybe you should be careful your story isn't stolen.

In other words, yes we would like to read more  Grin
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« Reply #2 on: 02, February 2010, 01:03:37 AM »

we do indeed wish to read more!

apologies for being so busy lately  (finishing old course, starting new course, got engaged, moving house etc).

i have put something up somewhere about people's work being their own and other's shouldn't steal it, but legally i can't do much more than that, so maybe put a copyright after anything you post you wish to have published?

i've found people to be very trustworthy in here but we do get a lot of people and companies browsing - google and yahoo included, and anything that is not in the members area is free for them to browse and link.  if you are concerned about it, post only in the members area - it can't be viewed or seen by anybody just passing through.  and i do try and check all members out before i authorise their account, occasionally the odd spammer does fall through the cracks though.

but yes, post as much as you like.  the more posts the better!
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« Reply #3 on: 11, March 2010, 11:58:15 PM »

Thanks for your encouraging notes. Here is a little more of my BPD story.-Ron
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1.3 I make reference to a strong genetic contribution to the aetiology of BPD, a genetic predisposition, a genetic susceptibility as a factor in the pathogenesis of BPD.  A family history, what is sometimes referred to as a family pedigree, of affective disorder in a first-degree relative, in my case my mother(1904-1978) is relevant to this narrative.  My mother had a mild case of what may very well have been BPD, at least I have come to think of her mood swings as falling into a significantly high place in what is sometimes called the BPD spectrum during her 75 year life.  Her mood-swing disability or affective disorder, though, was never given the formal medical diagnosis manic-depressive(MD), a term which was replaced in 1980 after she died by the term BPD.   

1.3.1 All manifestations of BPD share uncertain etiologies, with often opaque relationships between genes and environment.  Some medical experts and theorists in the field of such studies posit latent changes in the expression of specific genes initially primed at the developmental stage of life.  Some studies and some experts emphasize that certain environmental agents disturb gene regulation in a long-term manner, beginning at early developmental stages in the lifespan perhaps even in utero.  But these disturbances, these perturbations as they are sometimes called, might not have pathological results until significantly later in life.  In retrospect, as I look back from these middle years(65-75) of late adulthood, the years 60 to 80 as some developmental psychologists call these years of the lifespan,  these perturbations and pathological results were clearly manifested at the age of 18.  I could easily theorize an earlier onset on the basis of behavioural perturbations manifested in early childhood and into adolescence and I do such theorizing later in this account(see sections 2.7.1 and 2.7.2 below).

1.4 The new diagnostic term, BPD, is now found in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders published by the American Psychiatric Association (DSM-III). DSM-III had 300 disorders twice as many as in the DSM-II.  The DSM is considered the bible by specialists and by the various professions and other interest groups.  It is considered by many as an information source, a major scientific instrument in the field of mental health.  In the DSM the term maniac was deleted and a one-size-fits-all classification system for MD and BPD was more finely tuned by the 4th edition published in 1994.  The exact discourse that has come to have jurisdiction in this labelling process, the circumstances that have come to result in a person given some mental illness label are due to: (a) norms and expectations as well as (b) medical, psychological, physiological and (c)  most recently, neurochemical and electrical brain activity as seen in brain imaging.

1.5 About half of all patients with BPD have one parent who also has some form of mood disorder.  There is then, or so it seems to me, a clinical significance in my mother’s mood disorder in the explanation of the origins and diagnosis of my own BPD.   The high heritability of BPD has been well-documented through familial incidence, twin and adoption studies.  There is an unquestionable justification for the inclusion of my family in the understanding of my BPD.   No specific gene has yet been identified as the one bipolar gene.  It appears likely that BPD is caused by the presence of multiple genes conferring susceptibility to BPD when combined with psychosocial stressors. I make this point as an opening remark and pass on to my story.

1.6  This account also provides a statement of my most recent experiences in the last two years, 2007-2010, with manic-depression(MD) or BPD as it has come to be called since 1980.   Some prospective analysis of my illness is also included with the view to assessing: potential short term, medium term and long-term strategies,  appropriate lifestyle choices and activities in which to engage in the years ahead in these middle years(65-75) of late adulthood(60-80) and old age(80++), if I last that long.  For the most part, though, this account, this statement I have written here in some 50,000 words, is an outline, a description, of this partially genetically predisposing family-based illness and of my experience with it throughout my life.  I would, though, discourage others from blaming their parents for their genetic contribution to the disorders.  I would also discourage them from blaming other family members for their contributions in the form of stress and conflict and failure to understand.  Rather than wasting time and energy in finger-pointing or bemoaning the fact that they have BPD, I would encourage them to learn how to best use available treatment modalities to minimize their symptoms and to find success and satisfaction in their lives despite their disorder.
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« Reply #4 on: 12, March 2010, 10:46:31 AM »

I'll just add little bits, wait for a response, and then add more.  My story is a long one and reallly aimed at those who: (a) don't mind a bit of a long read and (b) want a more longitudinal account and analysis of someone's experience.-Ron
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« Reply #5 on: 13, March 2010, 12:40:59 AM »

Be assured we are reading and appreciating, some posts are better off not being interfered with too much  Wink
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